More than five years ago, I believed I was living the dream, I was engaged, living in a beautiful home, and managing multi-million dollar show productions for MTV Networks.
Then during the summer of 2010, I experienced an Awakening that impacted every major aspect of my life. It was as if a veil was removed from my eyes.
I realized I was living societies dream. I was living my families dream. I wasn’t living mine.
I began to understand the world, life, love, creativity, spirituality, stillness, and sexuality for example in a whole new way.
The biggest realization is best summed up by the words of Dalai Lama..
The Dalai Lama, when asked what surprised him most about humanity, he said:
Because he sacrifices his health in order to make money.
Then he sacrifices money to recuperate his health.
And then he is so anxious about the future that he does not enjoy the present;
the result being that he does not live in the present or the future;
he lives as if he is never going to die, and then dies having never really lived.”
Two months after my peak awakening experience, I walked away from my job at MTV, my home, and most of my possessions. I walked away from everything that took a life time for me to create…
or as one of my loved ones put it, “You had everything, a nice job, a home, a husband to be and now you have nothing.”
Yes, in a sense I had the “American dream”, but I wasn’t happy. I didn’t feel fulfilled. I felt like I was missing out on something. I felt like I didn’t really know who I was, what I wanted, or felt really moved by. I was starting to feel like a lil robot stuck in a routine that was sucking my life energy away. I was exhausted on so many levels. Mostly, because all of my life I have been giving to everyone and everything, but me…
I am a woman who is waking up, seeking truths, expanding in love, & awakening my sensuality/creativity. I am a woman intending to create and co-create a life of love, peace, pleasure, and prosperity.
For Unity, For Wholeness, For Oneness, For the God(dess) in you, in me, in every being.
May love and prosperity be with you…