HOMELESS – PRIVATE JOURNAL ENTRY Summer 2012…
I decided to share the entry below because I have spoken to so many people who find themselves in a home situation that is not the ideal. I wanted to share that I myself have had my own journeys and challenges with finding myself “homeless” and then functionally homeless in 2012.
If you are wondering what functionally homeless is… it means that you do not have your own home, but someone is giving, providing, or sharing their shelter with you.
May my journal entry below provide some insight and inspiration Life is filled with up and downs. Just remember, your sentence isn’t over….
Location – somewhere in NYC Date – Summer 2012
Yesterday was one of those days… again.
What was surfacing was anger. Mostly anger at myself for allowing and creating the current situation I find myself in.
Finding a home hasn’t been as easy as I thought. In this money hungry society, everything is over priced and most realtors are only interested in dealing with you if you have a steady income.
I only have myself to blame for being up in the air like this.
I have been feeling so lost.
I know intuitively that this is part of the process of letting go, of finding myself, of releasing ego, and embracing the gifts this moment really has to offer me.
After an entire day of anger and feeling sorry for myself, I closed out my evening in silence.
“What do you love about this moment?”, my inner being asked me.
As tired as I was I knew I needed to do something different to change the the vibration I had been immersed in all day.
I listened to a ten minute video of Alan Watts. In this talk, he illustrates how the past is changed by how we perceive the present moment.
“We must abandon completely the notion of blaming the past for any kind of situation we’re in and reverse our thinking and see that the past always flows back from the present. That now is the creative point of life. So you see its like the idea of forgiving somebody, you change the meaning of the past by doing that…Also watch the flow of music. The melody as its expressed is changed by notes that come later. Just as the meaning of a sentence…you wait till later to find out what the sentence means…The present is always changing the past.”
My sentence isn’t over…
Here it is… My list.
What do you love about this moment?
That I can breathe
The mastery of love
My cel phone
My goddess hanging
My oracle cards
Jesus and Mary
My lion stuffed animal
The air conditioner
Now its your turn…
What does your list look like? What the first thing that comes to mind? See if it helps shift your mood. The lighter you feel, the faster you can attract those blessings you seek.
Thank you for allowing me to share.
Many blessings and prosperity to you, to me, to all of us.
ra lil wolf perez